“So, how do I beat this apathy folks. Is there anyone out there who can help?”

Don’t know if it helps for me to say this, but it sounds like you need to take the weight of responsibility for these coding projects off your shoulders. Sometimes it can be quite a relief to make the decision: “This is the end for project x”. It’s different to “I’m busy but I still feel guilty about it and so I *might* get back to it later.”

Don’t get me wrong – open source projects are awesome, but I know for myself that sometimes I simply need to reduce my commitments and focus on the big, important aspects of life. I’m sorry to hear about your father. Dealing with a loss like that takes time, and I think it’s important to be okay with that.

And hey – when you need a little distraction, I reckon that opening your IDE for an hour, reading some documentation, shutting down the computer and going to bed is just fine.

Apologies if this wasn’t really the time for a random stranger to drop by and put in his 2p!